I'm still debating if I should take the cowards way out and tell him through text
or tell him straight out (as in in front of him).
Maybe i'll take the chickenish way out.
I'll just text him.
Ron told me today that when a guy texts you that "you're a nice person" it usually means he's being nice and he doesn't like you.
Ok. maybe i shouldn't text. or talk to him at all.. hmmm?
actually, i just want to get over it! I hate this feeling! I super hate it!
I'd probably just cry once and then get over it! My pride is always stronger than anything else. And besides if he does "dump" me, I could always use that as a catalyst to a sexier more gorgeous me.. right?
So i think im trying to convince myself.
I hope by the time I finish writing this article, I'd have made my mind up. Maybe I'll just text him today.. hmm.. cowards way out..
Show me your love is playing.. hmmm... love will not wait for you eternally. Yup. I should just text him and get over it.. make it short and sweet like...
" i like you. just tell me if you don't like me. I'll get over it. "
or
" i like you. tell me if you don't like me. I'll get over it. "
ooops.. those were the same things...
or this is better
" I like you, tell me if you like me or don't like me. I just want to clear this thing up. Don't need the stress... merry xmas (???)"
hahaha.. that was bad.
maybe i'll just text " i like you, tell me if you don;'t like me. I'll get over it. "
and if he says i don't like you like that.. i'll text back
"great. try to act normally ok? c you later"
haha.. great.. sounds like a plan then.
i've never done this before. This sucks ha. Well, my friends made me realize that christmas is next week! Dammit!!! I gotta get this cleared up before Xmas. I swear. I can't take it.
Hey And I made a Sugar Mantra .. his codename is Sugar.. because he's bad for me.. makes my tummy/heart hurt... a lot..
THE SUGAR MANTRA
by joko
I will not look at you or talk to you or make the first move to talk about you
I will act like you don't exist and I don't care about you
I will cry
I will live unhappily
inspite and because of you
And in fairness, it worked today. Nag-pacute siya to death. As in. haha.. bala siya.. wait.. should i text him then?
hmmm.. mahirap ito ha.
baka magdaldal ang loko.. di ko makaya..
I'm going out to lunch with lester tommorow.... hay. i wish choy would come with me.
I wish choy would be mine na.
I'm pretty. I'm one of the most intelligent people I know (wow kapal muks na ito ha). And I know na paginasawa mo naman ako siguradong di ka magugutom---ever.. So what the hell is freakin' wrong with him.
Kanina, I joked that I was asking this guy out to be my boyfriend. He told me in all joking earnestnessthat "I will not be able to take your expectations" haha.. wow talga.. Mataas ba expectations ko?
Haha. medyo nga.
grabe handa na nga ako kumain sa jollibee ng araw-araw para kay choi. Or kung nagtitipid kami.. baon na lang.. grabe na ito...
grabe na talga..
Siguro i'll just try the whole sugar mantra thing tomorrow. Actually gusto ko na nga ngayon na lang as in! Maybe i should.
I'll just think about it.
A friend told me today to "weigh stuff" daw. Weigh if the consequences of knowing his answer would be equal to the relief that i would get and the possible hiya factor involved after the fact.
Wow bigat di ba?
Siguro I should just realize was doinee told me last saturday...
"face it joko.. the feeling may not be mutual.. EVER!!!"
bigat di ba?
haha pero totoo. Guess what I don't want to wonder. Ayoko na masaktan katulad nung monday. It hurt too much. When he was making pa-cute and this girl was flirting with him.
And he was flirting back.
I'll be honest and say na I'm hoping that he likes me. But i know the greater chance is that he doesn't. And being a guy, he'll act "ilang" with me, and avoid me like the plague. Can't wait for that to happen.. as in!
i'll probably make him the freakin' joke of the center. And i think i can do that too.
hay. oh vengeful heart of mine.
PEro if he rejects me, I'll probably exercise my way to a sad christmas.
what do you think?
unrequited love stinks.
Ok. I decided. I'll text him today. before i go to sleep. magsisi na ang magsisi, it's better that i did it than not do it and spend forever thinking what if i did it.
good luck to me.
good luck to me.. a lot!